I Can’t Have C*vid…I’m A Mom

It’s crazy to think now that it was only a year ago that I was battling C*vid. With everything that was going on in my life at that time, I couldn’t deal that something else was taking place. In September of 2020 our baby had been diagnosed with a rare form of Cold autoimmune hemolytic anemia. This episode landed him 3 weeks in the hospital to be cared for by the ICU, Oncology/Hematology dept and Infectious diseases dept.

To finally have him home with us was pure joy. Sadly, the joy wouldn’t last for too long before life would throw another wrench our way. You see part of him coming home was that he needed to go to the hospital weekly to confirm if his blood levels were sustaining. Sometimes you go in wondering if this is the day that they say we are back to square to one. But thankfully, that was never said.

Unfortunately, in those first few weeks, I caught C*vid. I felt shattered inside of me. I couldn’t afford to go to leave somewhere else for 2 weeks because I was just getting back into the groove of working. I had three children under the age of 6. 1 of them, just got out the hospital for an autoimmune blood disorder and my older 2 have asthma.

I had to really stop and think.

  • What am I supposed to do?
  • How do I be a mom when I shouldn’t even be around people?
  • Am I okay?
  • Why now? Especially after all that just happened, why now?

I was an emotional wreck.

My Challenges:

  • Being a mom to the three who needed me most.
  • Caring for my children at a distance.
  • Being mindful of the spaces I was in and sanitizing it more often
  • Always wearing a mask even when it got annoying and frustrating.

Even though, I was sick I couldn’t stop being a mom. I still had to cook and take care of my kids. I still had to do my normal tasks. Now some I did a little less, but I tried.

Despite all of that, I am still grateful:

  • My symptoms were mild compared to the ones that I have heard about.
  • My most impacted areas were: taste, smell and shortness of breath.
  • My children thankfully did not and have not caught C*vid.
  • I have recovered well. My taste sometimes is a bit weaker, but overall I have been able to do well.
  • Through it all. I prayed and God answered my prayers. I got well and my children were protected.

This pandemic has caused a lot of grief and pain. I don’t share my story to belittle anyone else’s experience. I share because I am truly grateful to have been through it and come out standing. I am grateful that God truly protected my children because it would have been easy for them to get it with me being home.

For those of who have lost loved ones during this time whether related to or not, I pray that God give your strength and peace. Many people have lost people they loved over the last two years. I just want to take a moment to honor their memory.

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